Love

Love is uncontrollable. It crushes me again and again and again. I can’t run away from my heart. The sadness and ache weigh on my chest. I should let myself drop fully into the hurt but I’m terrified of falling apart. These trapped feelings form a permanent lump in my throat. I try to breathe it out. I can’t , I love him. He’s busy. He’s busy dying. His transplant is failing.

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